re-considerg

ive been reconsidering my rship with jo.
i keep feelg he has no time for me.
even now, hes yet again at daryl's hse.
i cant help but think tt hes gay
i cant understand why he got so much time for daryl.
its like, he says its cos his mom and bro is thr.
so does tt indicate that whrever the mom and bro is,
he'd follow?
like on EVERY wkends?
den wots d use of havg a rship with me when he has no time to spare for me?
this truly sucks.
he seems to have so much fun w/o me.
and i am too.
and it aint cos i dont wanna spend time havg fun with him- its cos i CANT.
he doesnt go out with ME!
how the hell can i like spend time with him?
sighs*
i cant understand.
mayb we jus aint meant to b.
so many thgs obstructg us.
TIME, MOM, more TIME.
i dont understand.
do i really deserve this?
would it be better to leave him?
so he doesnt feel bounded to ms or call me?
c'mon, even tho he is now.
he aint even replyg my sms.
wtf is this?
SHIT =x
go to hell.
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ytd was super fun.
went church with lu.
went sajc fun fair.
haha =)
haunted hse was scary.
i kept grabbing onto vic and lu.
they were the only ones bside me.
and theyre my besties! =)
hee.
sorry vicky darling.
but u screamed like a MAD WOMAN.
and i screamed too.
i was super freaked as i felt ppl grabbg my legs.
euuu*
haha.
lu stepped on one of them.
hahahaha =D
aft church, lu and i went to eat.
a heavy HEAVY meal- considerg that i havent eaten for the whole day la. =x
haha.
i ate sambal stingray - we agreed to share (: it was yummy*
i ate curry chicken (my CRAVE!) - but it kinda sucked- watery!!!
he ate chicken cutlet.
and OH YES.
let me tell u guys, i super love his fruit juice.
watermelon and banana (yUmMy!)
tried a bit.
and it was great. =)
bestie time was so best la.
i just wished i had time with jo to do such thgs for the whole day, it'd b the bestest of the bestest.
but sighs....
oh well, fergeddit.